| My hobby for the past 20 years has been radio | | | | reminisce about all the great flights we had with it. Sort |
| control airplanes. Lately we have been using one | | | | of emulates life doesn't it. |
| airplane as an experimental platform to try different | | | | So in the realm or "illusion" of time, (past, present and |
| innovations (weird ideas) to improve the aerobatic | | | | future), where does fear abide? It is always in a |
| performance. | | | | perception of "one" future probable event; it doesn't |
| Just before the motor was started, I had a vision of | | | | mean it will happen this way, but by force of habit, we |
| crashing it and the fear of failure came to my mind, | | | | 'always' pick one scenario in our minds from any |
| and I calmed my fear as best I could and flew. I | | | | number of probable events and we 'dwell on that' to |
| realized later that night that fear is, in instances such as | | | | the exclusion of all other probabilities and raise our level |
| these, not real, it's a construct of the mind, obviously, | | | | of anxiety in so doing. This is how our minds operate |
| and the fear is truly not "based" in this present moment | | | | until we stop doing that! |
| of now. It is only a perception of possible future events | | | | 'That which I feared has come to pass' is one of the |
| or probable events. | | | | truths in life. If we hold on to a fear and nurse it in our |
| What is there in the future to be afraid of? If I crashed | | | | mind, it will definitely manifest into something at a future |
| I would not experience fear afterwards and if I flew | | | | time and usually just what we imagined it would be. It is |
| and landed successfully the fear would not be | | | | the power of our minds which is the root cause of the |
| necessary. I would be either picking up pieces or | | | | manifestation in all cases. |
| happily carrying my airplane off the runway; fear would | | | | The airplane took off beautifully and climbed toward |
| not enter into either probability anyway. Truly our | | | | altitude, then pointed its nose to heaven, then came |
| greatest fear is fear itself. | | | | straight down, did a few humpty bumps, stalled and |
| I suppose if I had flown out of control and run into my | | | | spiraled into a pea field! This was all extremely |
| own head with the model, it would have killed me, but | | | | excillarating and fear, I realized, was not my feeling |
| that is just about as ridiculous as worrying about dying | | | | while I was at it. I was too darned busy trying to save |
| while enjoying water skiing; sure it could happen but | | | | my airplane. |
| what's the point of worrying? | | | | It works the same in most traumatic events, our minds |
| All of our model airplanes are beautiful creations that | | | | often become quite calm and we just do what it takes |
| we build with our hands and minds, and we realize that | | | | to try and survive. If you have ever been in a car |
| each one is "terminal," meaning that; one day, they will | | | | crash and survived, time, just before the point of |
| crash beyond repair... when it happens we toss the | | | | impact, seems to slow down to a crawl and fear |
| pieces in a burning barrel and give the airplane a | | | | doesn't factor into it in that moment. |
| wonderful "send off", then we have a few beers and | | | | But that's life and it's all good, in fact it is perfection. |