Soldier to Life s Battles

54th Battalion. 4th Division. Unit 984. Belgium. 1944.from melted down silver. Another soldier carries
Crumbling buildings. Strewn bodies. A growing fear.around a picture of his daughter, while another carries
Boiling, uneasy groans. Seeing beyond the pale light ofjust the memories in his head of his childhood house,
the war to the dim glimmer of death. Something issecluded in a small town in the woods. But among
inside of these men, twitching, squirming. Just thethese men, these marching soldiers battling for control
pebbles of a once great civilization crunching beneathover their lves as much as the next man, there is one
their feet. walking steady, keeping your head up,man -- Che -- who holds one thing prized above all: a
looking around cautiously, sometimes drawn into thelove letter given to him by his lover. At least, she once
tomb of thought and unweariness. A dead body lieswas his lover, and she once swore all of her love just
against a building. Nobody notices. More marching. Ato him. Laura, a name so divine that only the angels
soldier's head falls, himself still marching. A girl. A face.could speak it. Her tender legs, moist inside, passionate
A lover. A friend knocks him out of dreams with atouch, lustfully in love and always sincere in her
gentle hit. More marching. More climbing through theaffection. These were the thoughts racing through the
traughs of earth. Conquering more territory in themind of Che, as he marched in the war parade across
nightmare of existence. Squinting. Confusion. Fog. Myst.the streets which yielded no playful and careless
But a clear day. Rest stop. A soldier sits on rubble andchildren.
dumps the contents of his canteen on his face.Laura, once the avowed lover of Che, but no more.
Another wipes his neck with a white cloth. Lying on hisFor after this love letter he is holding in his hands, which
stomach, occassionally making noises, another soldierwas like fleeting touches of her body, another letter
stairs into the inevitable future, undeniable fate. He turnscame. The first letter spoke of devotion and the
over on his back, his weapon by his side. He gets upsecond of desertion. His four months (now 6) of
and leaves, his gun left. Clinking and clanking of toolsexistence in a foreign land was too much for her. Her
and weapons, as everyone senses the move outfirst love letter was volumous, with imagery of physical
order. Then it comes. And more marching. They're onaffection and love -- something any soldier would
the road that leads no where and it goes for miles andcherish from their lover. Physical love manifested within
miles. They will walk until their feet had worn down,the words of our humble English language. The words
and they had nothing but nubs left, and then theyof the letter were etched into his heart, the way two
would walk 10 miles more.lovers claim a tree by marking the bark. He memorized
His rifle in his hands, moving at the same pace of theevery sentence, every syllable. But she left him. The
other soldiers, Che walked with about as muchinitial shock was almost disbelief. Then, there was a
uncertainty as he has inexperience. He was, like manyvoid in his purely militaristic existence. And while the
of the soldiers in his platoon, a soldier, a boy, a man, areal Laura was away with another, she was dead to
lover, a hater, a beast of passion, desire, love, and lust.him. A once living beauty crumbled to pieces as he
He was in another nation and sacrificing days of his liferead the truth on white paper. His mind churned with
that would torment him for years. The opinion of thisthe ingredients of misery, preparing the concoction of
varied from man to man in the platoon. To some, itfate. Marching with a heavy head. He still kept the first
was a patriotic call to duty, and to others it was just alove letter, to remind him of how happy he once was.
requirement, while others still were Pacifists who hadAnd oh how he was indeed! In no other time of his life
been tortured and threatened with imprisonment by thecould he sincerely attest to so much comfort and love.
US government, as was not uncommon. It didn't takeSlowly through denial, anger, sympathy, he kept his
long for the patriots to realize that what they werelove letter, and just as surely as he read her aged
doing was hardly patriotic, that it was not helping theirwords of affection, she was reading another man's
people, nor was it helping any people. Either way, likepoetry. Two months had passed since the breakup.
Che, the members of this platoon were here onHe march, still in tune to Laura's love song, not with a
foreign soil, armed, with orders to destroy, themselvesheavy heart, but the beautiful past lifting him in the air.
unready to kill. The platoon moves, until it finds itsBut it was this day that Che marched with the words
locations: no where. The platoon leader tells his soldiersof Laura in his hand, not looking, not thinking, but just
that they're sleeping here, among the rubble with ratsvisualizing her soft caress as her words looked at him.
and roaches.The debris of broken tools, destoryed buildings, or
Nighttime. A cloak of darkness spread over the land,tattered clothing was subject to his worn, numb feet,
as soldiers retired to the ground for sleep. As the sunhis fixation not altering once. And whether it was by his
sets on the horizon, so it sets on this evening of theirown negligence or lack of concentration, he wound up
lives, never to come again. And with their lives full ofwhere he was. He looked up, stopping in his tracks and
hardship and existence, today is the last day they willthe words of the letter, and he saw German faces,
have this much ahead of them. Whether there is onlywith German-military helms and wearing
one day before death, or a great many decades,German-military outfits. Holding his letter in his hand, his
there is a limit on existence of all those men. Here theyrifle slung, he saw one of the German soldiers raise his
are, in a great World War, fighting to end the existencegun to shoot. Che asked one thousand questions:
of other men. Their names may not be remembered,Does she love me still? Does she still think about me?
but what they do will forever change the course ofDoes she know that I still love her? Does she know I
the planet.kept her letters? What does she think about me?
Daybreak. The soldiers struggle to consciousness asWhat does she think about me? What does she think
they warm breakfast over scattered campfires. Theabout me? And then a blast lasting no more than a
morning dusk has brought nothing but chills. Themicrosecond, and he fell, the wind taking possession of
endless march began again. Every soldier has theirhis letter. But as the azure skies turn a darker shade,
own lucky charm, or momento, or tangible piece ofand as his body loses feeling, Che wonders if he
sentimentality. One soldiers carries a pendant given toshould have lived his last few weeks of existence as
him by his grandmother. To him it is a purpose, but to ahe did.
scavenging German soldier, it is a small piece of profit